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I've been scribbled out ~ lost it all in the fight ~
at one point I even forgot what I was fighting for.

But I do know this:  they are all gone. I am not sure if I just misplaced my pencil or someone else won my words ~ as if they are stapled to some random wall with a pretty blue ribbon and I am left with an honorable mention plaque made from Paper Mache.

Or maybe it is me that is scribbled out.  Someone has taken their dulled pencil in fist and rubbed the paper raw, rubbed it right through until all that is left is a huge hole and the desk is covered with a thick layer of lead.

Is that all I am? lead on plywood? Someone's stick figure to delete at their whim?

I don’t know.

It’s been one of those days … weeks … years…

She promises it will get better.

Or she would if she knew how to word it without coming across cliché.

Either way I understand. That part at least. The rest … well I’m going to see if I can find a new pencil and start from there.
I'm fine.

Really.

I've just ... been there.

Just wish I could have/would have something more than just agreeing.

Edit 20091018: Special thanks to ~DontStopTheRain for use of her icon :hug:
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:iconloofsydobon:
looFsydoboN Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2009   Writer
The icon fits very well. Wonderful, poignant piece.
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2009
thank you so much! :love:
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IsabellaMichel Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2009  Student Writer
Nice piece. :nod: :heart:
It really had a nice flow to it, but still sad.
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2009
Thank you, sweetie!
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razzigyrl Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2009  Professional Artisan Crafter
For some reason this brings to mind an old story of yours (i think it was yours) The person writing the journal... I can't remember most of it, just that they seemed to be unsure of their own perceptions...

!yoJ
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2009
this particular one was actually from April. I just updated it with the new picture. :)
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DontStopTheRain Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2009
No problem :hug:

The poems really nice btw, your really good at writting stuff people can relate to ^^

DontStopTheRain
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2009
:hug: thanks!!
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DontStopTheRain Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2009
^^

DontStopTheRain
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reivax Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2009  Student Digital Artist
This is neat.
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2009
thanks! :D
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reivax Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2009  Student Digital Artist
:nod:
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:iconloverz116:
loverz116 Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2009
:hug:
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2009
:hug:
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loverz116 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2009
:glomp:
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:iconaestheticparadise:
AestheticParadise Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Well, have you found a new pencil?
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2009
I have thank you though with the move and life I have had little time to use it.
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:iconaestheticparadise:
AestheticParadise Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah. Well, hope everything with your move and life is going well. You should use it soon! :D
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2009
:hug: thanks!
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:iconthesekrimzonflames:
TheseKrimzonFlames Featured By Owner May 4, 2009
Been there too. :)
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner May 4, 2009
:hug:
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:iconwolfenlied:
Wolfenlied Featured By Owner May 2, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
This is sad :(

Still it speaks something to me that I have trouble defining...
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner May 2, 2009
:hug: Thank you both for your words and the fave :love:
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Wolfenlied Featured By Owner May 2, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
My pleasure. :D
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner May 3, 2009
:boogie:
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:iconrainydaydarling:
rainydaydarling Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
Or a good pencil sharpener.
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
hehe yeah that too :love:
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AurayaTheWhite Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
this is great, i think we've all been there but this is expressed really well, it's so easy to relate to <3
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
<3 thank you :)
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AurayaTheWhite Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
you're most welcome
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
:boogie:
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FailureAtItsFinest Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
Great imagery. 'It’s been one of those days … weeks … years…' is my favorite line. And i hope your friends is ok, as well as you. :hug:
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EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
YAY! Yeahm he's struggling but I think he's doing better.
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AlwaysAnUnquietMind Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
great imagery...
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
Thanks! :)
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AlwaysAnUnquietMind Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
your welcome...
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
:iconlovehug:
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Jarlaxyle1 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
starting over is sometimes the best thing that you can do. I did that just this last january... :D


:fork:
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EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
:nod: yup :D
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CaronCecilia Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
aaawww.... :iconsoftglompplz:
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EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
yeah :iconlovehug:
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Eloquent-Weapon Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
:hugs:
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EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
:hug: I'm ok :)
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Eloquent-Weapon Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
I know, i just couldnt think of anything better to say. :)
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EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
:hug: thank you
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Eloquent-Weapon Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
You're welcome!
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009
:heart:
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e--motiona--l Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2009
What happened?
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:iconeatingmyownfears:
EatingMyOwnFears Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2009
a friend said the first line of this in a conversation. I understood. Kind of.
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